Sorry people and to the very little audience out there. This will be second last post until the official announcement. I am considering changing my blogging site. Mainly due to the missing archives issue. I am afraid as I am writing this, another entry in my archives would have gone away. So I may change to other blogging site. Currently looking into blogspot and would scout for more. I want hangedman as my domain but hangedman.blogspot.com was taken and that bloody site was literally hanged! In conclusion, no post. I have some back up post written and saved in my TXT so dont be surprised if there is a sudden surge in number of post / day in the future. Until then, Have a nice day.
Was reading this novel. It is really interesting. The prologue captures me. Can help thinking about the 5000-word story that my Form 2 teacher once asked us to write. I wonder if I could write that again. To read that novel, go here:
Yesterday stacked a total of 10 salt/peppers in dinning hall. And engineering achievement. I think dining hall should decorate their wall with these bizzare pictures of their stuff having fun- stacking of salt and peppers, making models with forks and spoons, stacking a pyrimid with glasses... That adds fun to the stoic dining atmosphere.
Missed dinner and lunch deliberately. What the hell...Roommate is tempting me with AOE II Online with fellow floormates. Hate that. Gotta get out of here soon or I'll fall into temptation. Had 4 games yesterday, having the satisfaction of creaming my roommate (also my ally) with Onagers. I used 3 Onagers and his 10 Onagers along with some Mongudai are gone. Not my fault. I need to take revenge on my 5 innocent champions. Alright, that's a little too much maybe but...
UPDATE: I dint play...but I watched along...regretted. If I joined in, it would be 3v3, should end earlier
Chatted with Onee-sama 2 days ago. Discuess the use of 'cannot do-' in Japanese. Cant get it completely still. Looks like I will be having trouble in my JAP 102 class next semester...
Suddenly realized that my archives are gone. March series suddenly gone without a trace. Dang it. Emailed tblog bu still waiting for response. Friend invited me over zorpia...hmm...
Arafat has officially passed away today. Wonder why they would let him hang on the oxygen tank for some time. Did they gave up extorting the vegan?... I believe they manage to secure his money. It's either with PLO or Sula, his wife. Maybe they even split the share of money. Poor Palesteniens. Imagine everyone of you got your little share of prize and lottos.
I would rather believe that there is a conspiracy behind everything. So, if you tell me that Pres Bush attack Iraq to liberate the poor state, I'll ask you to go die. Nonetheless, if you could come up with faked-evident saying that Pres Bush secured some X number of oil contract with local warloards and that his oily tychoon friends would have a small share on it and scoop all the rest for himself and so on and so forth, I would treat you like demi-god. Unless you could prove to me that those fake documents are genuine stuff. Hey, all documents are made up to convince skeptics like me. I wont fall for that!
Am I being too imaginative or that's just plain fact? Come on, I once even believe that some alien came to Earth and kidnapped me to Mars for some brain experiment. That's why I am a little retarded. So stop convincing me that I am thinking too much. The conspiracy is there. Trying to runaway from believing there is no conspiracy is not going to change the fact that the conspiracy is there. Did I make myself clear? In short, you cant change the fact. Ask your mum and see what they hide from you. Remember when you are younger your mum would say that you are picked from some garbage dump site? That maybe true. What about those dont take candy from strangers story tale? OK, maybe there is some truth in there...The point is think, how many times you got tricked and cheated when your are small? There must be some conspiracy among your uncles and aunties...
Maybe I should stop being too skeptical. It consumed too much of my brain cells. Trying to connect those little dots is never an easy task. What more if after connecting it, the picture looks so abstract. You 'life-is-good' people wont understand a bloody thing. Like looking at Picasso or what's his name... the funny looking picture with clock bent in 4th dimension and a half dead tree. It's like explaining the existance of a working bending clock that looks flat to you. (sounds like a blog title to me...) You just dont get it, do you? Man, what a retard. Ask your mum if the doctor scooped some of your brain out when you are small.
Too much dabating. Maybe there is a conspiracy that I would debate with myself so that I wouldnt be able to study and bring the class's average down and make everyone happy. Those bastards, they always conspire the day before my exams. I realize that I am a little 'high' before exams and would need to crap more to excrete those unkown carcigonen. I would call it crapsinogen.
[Crapsinogen == defined as substances that when applied on a person would cause extreme dizziness, headache, and muscle excitement on mouth and tongue. No antidote. Nonetheless, crapping it out would help in excretion of toxin.]
Now that I have realized that...you cant do a thing. Me will expose of your dirty tricks and make you eat grass for the rest of your life.
The weather is freaking cold, that hurts my studying mood...I wonder if the demons are roaming out there...You know, those cold-blooded bastards.
My friends- Tomatoinc and Livingmonolith wrote about this. (Their link is at the sides) Tomato asked me to write too. It took me a long while to write it. You will know why later. This is also a way to post my blog when I dont feel like writing something else.
So here they are...prepare to scroll for a while.
100 facts about me:
1. I love purple color. More blue than red though.
2. I have a habit of writing on my hands, arms...just like a memo
3. I took up chemical engineering because I was given a chance to study engineering oversea and I dont like other engineering offered.
4. I gave up studying Medicine because I am a chicken.
5. I am in love with Irish coffee.
6. I watched more movies in my uni life than the my first 19 years.
7. I am a collecter: stamps, coins, notes, articles, and my latest collection, shot glasses.
8. I bought some souveniers that I never gave away. Some includes maneki nekos, mickey mouse, stuffy animals...I may give away some other times.
9. Similarly I dont like to throw away things that other people gave me and I will remember who gave what to me. This is the best way for me to remember you. (hint)
10. I love to play strategy games...especially KOEI series.
11. I play many board games- especially good in chinese chess...I want to learn shogi.
12. I trust my ears, nose, and other senses more than my sight.
13. I choose based on deduction. Same goes to MCQ papers. That also applied to fact #3 mentioned. I will write many options and strike out those I think are useless.
14. Among my best time in high school is the 1 week VSG senior orientation, which I quit after 1 week. Things I will regret in my life includes quitting VSG when I was 16.
15. I learn how to play mah jong in the United States although my paternal families play it every Chinese New Year.
16. Given a chance, I want to quit engineering school and transfer to Liberal Arts.
17. I lean how to play poker here. Currently I am on a negative streak.
18. For some reason, I hate Singaporean, especially the guys. Out of the many that I know/acquinted/recognized , only 5 that doesnt irritates me which includes my not so ugly TA. (my TA is a female) Even girls irritates me.
19. I believe I will meet wizard or soccerer or witch...one day
20. I dreamt of owning my own lab when I was younger. I thought having test tubes and pippetes would make a good enough labs. Maybe a few more powder and bubbling water.
21. My favourite comic series is Dr Black Jack, and I will buy the whole series one day.
22. I prefer green apples to red ones.
23. For some reason, I think I remember girls' info- name, birthdates, shoe sizes better. No, I dont stalk them.
24. Thanks to one person, I think I begin to like something beyond my culture- especially Salsa dancing, and learning Japanese. I want to be at least amatuer level one day but I have to get rid of my chickenness first. That person is my Onee-sama.
25. I played piano but am lazy to practise. I cant play a proper classical pieces without making major mistakes now.
26. I cried in one movie- The Road Home. Others I couldnt recall and dont want to remember.
27. So far I shed my tears in front of only 1 girl...normally I would rather die than letting them know I am crying.
28. I will love these few songs- Sway, Stand by me, Eyes on me, Life is like a boat...for the rest of my life, I think.
29. For some reason, I begin to like Boa...despite her Britney Spearness
30. I had a crush for the first time when I was 11...and everyone knows it, including my crush...damn!
31. I dont like to put gel on my hair. I dont shave until I think it is irritating. If I do, I am onto something.
32. I finished 2 books in 3 days when I first arrived in US. A record that remain unbroken.
33. Most of the (ugly and lousy) poems I wrote have some encrypted information. That includes the weird titles.
34. I would rather be as diplomatic as my patience allowed.
35. I think I can confide more to a girl than guy, despite knowing the fact that they are nosy and couldnt keep secrets.
36. I like to argue with girls, especially the prettier ones.
37. I like girls with short hair...but cutting your hair doesnt make you stand above the rest if you are ugly.
38. I hate girls who put :'( on their msn conversation. I call them crying bag.
39. I dont hug people unless they hug me first. Once hugged, I would be more comfortable hugging them the next time. I think I have hug-phobic disorder.
40. I'd develope the ability to sleep almost anywhere since the end of last year.
41. I am born in Kota Bharu and I am proud to be a Kelantanese. Although I never grew up there and only pick up some broken Kelantanese dialect from my maternal family. I only go back once a year.
42. I used to think there is a spirit within me. So I talk to my spirit. Now I dont believe it anymore. So, I talk to myself instead.
43. I used to think that by sitting down on the floor and let the shower rain all over your head will bring enlightenment. I know it wont after attempting to enlighten myself for 4 years.
44. Beef is my favourite. I like beef stomach noodle- ngau lam min.
45. I cook. My trademark meal is chicken rice. I learnt it from a sifu...actually from my friend.
46. I dont think I will ever take a flame shot, maybe an 'extinguished shot'.
47. I was given condoms every year but I never use one and I am proud of it.
48. I believe I have psyhic ability. Only that it takes some extraodinary circumstances to prove it.
49. I wear my watch everywhere I go; if my watch is water proof, I would even wear it when I am taking a shower.
50. I try not to develope American accent. I am trying to develope a British accent in an American land. I tried to avoid Manglish accent. So, I ended up with no particular accent.
51. I had tonsilitis (my aunt said) so I cant drink cold beverages or eat ice-creams when I was little. I used to hide to eat ice-cream and pretend that I didnt cough afterwards to avoid questioning from my mum.
52. I banged my mum's car but since there was no obvious scar, it remained secret.
53. I used to feed spiders in front of my house drain and treat them as 'pet'. I know exactly how they spin their victim
54. I like to bite grass. Another victim is straw.
55. "Finder keeper loser weeper". I will keep whatever thing I can find and use it until someone claims it. I will return it to them. That includes money.
56. I dont like to use perfume.
57. I zone my friends. Different zone people address me differently with different accent. So I would roughly know who called me depending on how they address me.
58. I used to write diaries and I keep them still...better no one ever looking at them...
59. I dont bet in world cup since 15. I tend to lose the moment I bet. The team I support tends to win when I dont bet. Looks like my prophetic ability is holiness dependent.
60. I have de javus. Lots of them.
61. I love to eat. I will be more than happy to clean up dishes if you can make me a good meal. In fact, that is how I get my good meal during my first summer.
62. I was a messy person, and still am a messy person. I think I will be messy person.
63. I dont like to tune my clock to the exact moment. I like it 5 minits faster or slower.
64. I believe in both creation and evolution.
65. I am convinced there is only one GOD and that was when I was 13. I came from a Taoist/Buddhist/Confucini sm family background.
66. To me, the prize is not important. I always see the opportunity to go up to the stage as an honor.
67. My face turn red very fast when I drink alcohol. But I dare to say I have not get drunk and dont plan to.
68. I dont like to be the actor. I want to be the director. But I dont have the capability to be the director, therefore I end up as spectator.
69. I was a conductor for school choir. I was 10 then. I conducted for my headmaster's farewell dinner function, teachers' day and for a competition. Now, I know that I was just a metronome back then. I am not a conductor.
70. I dreamt of being a lone-ranger- the cool guy who seperates himself from the majority crowd and yet acknowledged as (among) the smartest. But I am dumb.
71. I have special interest in history, ancient civilization, paranormal, religion, archeology, anormal zoology, astronomy, astrology and maybe some chemistry.
72. Some of my friends said that my jokes is not funny. Well, I cant help it if they are too dumb to get it. It is no longer funny if I need to explain to them. But I have my dumb moment too.
73. I want to have a very touching life-time love story. Those that only encounter in movies and novel. But I dont think I am psychologically prepared nor am I mentally tough enough to handle it.
74. I have killed one frog and several crabs. The frog is the end-point of a dissection class in high school and crabs is for cooking. I also collected mouse head and their headless body and dispose them when there was a cat resides in my house once.
75. I have wonderful experience with crocroaches. I used to pull crocroaches's antenna when I caught them. My friend used to called me to whack crocroaches in the toilet. (Yeah, it's a she...and that was the toilet where I took my piano lesson) I used to scare her with crocroaches too.
76. I dont hate people easily. But once I hate them I dont forgive them easily too. I hate those who betrays me. My way of expressing hatred is not to talk to you even if necessary.
77. I bit my friend when he challenged me to bite him. He cried after that and threaten to tell my mum. I was 10 then.
78. I tend to sit on the same place if possible- in lecture, classes. I hate those people who took my place. I curse them silently.
79. My teacher told me once that she believes I would make great discovery one day...I think I would discover that what she said was untrue the moment I am on my death bed...I hope I am wrong.
80. I want to win a Nobel prize. But I think I dont have that talent to do it.
81. My mum said I am stupid and therefore I need to be hardworking. I think she was right. I remain lazy nonetheless.
82. I dont present my trueself. I always mix it with some made up personality. There are only a few that I am comfortable with at any given time. It's my problem.
83. I thought eating paper is an incredible feat until my friend bit off and start chewing half of the pencil he was holding. I was 8 then.
84. I could move my ears.
85. I look exactly like my dad. I saw his family picture before when he was younger.
86. I played cards since 6, chess since 7, chinese chess since 8. I have a weird childhood.
87. I learn all my cantonese vulgar language in school bus since primary school and improved them in high school and perfected them in university. I have a Hong Kong roommate who serves as my sifu.
88. I never say 'fuck' until I am 19. Now it is more than a fuck.
89. I can only swim in breast-stroke. I cant maintain my free-style for long.
90. I have a collection of sick, uncool, pervertic jokes that is worth 198K in txt format.
91. I thought of committing suicide once. I never have the courage to do it.
92. I used to be afraid of height until my friend told me that as long as I dont fall off the balcony, I am fine. I start to sweat again when I imagine myself falling.
93. I am pretty imaginative. Sometimes I imagine sick stuff. That includes a perfect plan to drown my English teacher that I hate when I was in primary school.
94. I admit that I am short, shorter than many girls.
95. I always wanted to commit a perfect crime. That happens before the release of Murder by Numbers.
96. I dont wear belt in high school. Therefore I always tuck in my shirt all the way in like a nerd.
97. I think VI's prefect is the coolest of all. I turned down that offer when I was given the opportunity to be cool.
98. I have a handful of clothing that I treasured most. They are bought by the love of those who gave me. They worth more that my lousy $1000 desktop. Even my shot glasses fall short before them.
99. Due to my ex-roommate's influence, I tend to type completely in msn, ICQ..."oh i see", "good night" etc
100. I realize that I dont really know myself after writing this 100 facts about myself...
Since dont know when, I'd decided to hang out in the Union every Friday after my 421 class. Since I am meeting with a friend constantly on Friday at 4, I would spend my first 2 hours in the Pool center playing Pool, Pinball, Crazy Taxi, or just watching people jumping on DDR platform. Oh yea, I am pretty bored playing pool alone, come join me sometime from 2-4 Friday Union Pool Center. Nonetheless I wont be there all the time, just most of the time...if we are fated, we shall meet.
Enough of advertisement. So back to where we were....PinBall. That's the beginning of my PinBall adventure. I like it at first but I got frustrated these few weeks. The pinball machine just decided to hit on my by asking me to feed him with more tokens per time period. What a bitch. I dont mind but if the ball just went straight into the deep end after a few minutes of moving the flippers...man I hate that! Just like humping a w...bad example. just like gambling, you are not satisfied and you want more...so I go to the change machine and get more...
This is the one that I am addcited to it...another one is LOR pinball.
Yesterday alone, I have spent $5 on that stupid machine. But I gotta play for a worth of more than $5- I got 1 free shot for breaking the replay scores, 1 free shot for special, 1 free shot for unknwonw technical glitch. Come to think about it, there is one time that I have spent $2 but played a total games worth of $6 due to technical error...he just gave me free shots for unknown reasons. Not too bad afterall. Maybe there is a conspiracy that the machines tried to lure me into playing and then squeeze my money little by little...smart. Next time I would just put $3 tokens and end my game as the tokens deplete. You cant fool me, suckers!
If you think you'd installed a Pinball in your PC...wait till you come to the real machine. It's much more awesome. The ball rolls like there is no friction and it's speed that rivals a X-33 plane. And the lights flicker faster than ambulance siren and nothing beats the excitement of getting mutiple balls. It's like getting multiple orgasm...Plus, no irritating moving the screen up and down as the ball goes. hmm...one drawback...$$$
So, let's play pinball. It is highly recommended if you have too much change to spare and dont want to donate it to the homeless. Oh ya, you can benefit another pinball player by putting additional tokens in the machine. That's the least you can do to reflect what little generousity you have left.
So here I am since 10pm, trying to catch up with the US Election between Bush and Kerry. 1/0 option...what a stupid system. At this time, Bush secured 249 Electoral Votes while Kerry has 211.
Currently, OH states with 20 EV is going down to Bush. Bush is leading with 51% at 97% vote count. So, looks like Kerry cant do anything but prepare a conceding speech. Meanwhile in NM, 52% lead by Bush at 86% vote count almost guaranteed him that state.
Meanwhile, Republic gain a majority in both houses.
So that concludes Bush will Rule for another 4 years. What does that mean?
1. Democrats maybe filing reports requesting for vote recount. But Sen Kennedy may advise otherwise and the Democrats will shut up.
2. Bush will continue his Iraq campaign without further adue. No need to worry about the image back home.
3. US #1 most hated person would be Nader.
(Cant help it. I am in IL, a Democrat state and I am prone to ridicule Bush, not that I like him to begin with)
Some other observations I made.
1. Bush's face in campaign is so much better. He should make a mask and wear that everytime for public appearance.
2. Many of the states are won not by landslide majority. It is bloody close. So close that you want to punch everyone and pull the traitor out. This simple majority implied a huge division among people.
3. Still too many people are not voting. I think. This is bad...hmm...I need statistic to back me up. Anybody out there that could help?
4. IF there is another Civil War in US, I am not surprise. Look at the states won by Bush, it is nearly all Midwest region while the Democrats wins the two coast. Texas is a die-heart fan of Republican...but hey what do you expect? It is a either or situation.
5. I think there are more people watching Superbowl than American Election. I didnt watch Superbowl, so it is just my thought.
6. I suspect the Osama bin Laden Videoclip is a conspiracy. The timing is simply too close to election where he is suppose to be dead 3 years ago.
7. Rumors says that Iran maybe a new target for Bush expansion. He better start attacking or Iran will be pointing Nuclear missile at White House in no time. Bush better dont touch any part of Asia. China is not going to be happy about it.
Coming to University, my department assign a pet for us every semester...except one so far. Without it, we cant graduate.
According to the time schedule, we are required to walk our pet for 4 hrs/week at least. Not to mention constant vet visits to ensure they have the best treatment with the department. Recently in this semester, they are more rigid as they know that more and more people cant take care of their pet. So, they want us to bring our pet for checking once every week. Oh ya, there is also a trivia quiz on the general knowledge on our pet every monday. This is to ensure that we know what our pet demands when they are making noise.
Taking care of our pet is a good training. It is to train our determination and to ensure that only those who are caring, patient and careful and meticulous are allowed to graduate. Also, it is about responsibilities. We are assigned a pet and we have to keep track of it's health and appointment dates. Man, now I know why they hire secretary.
However, our pet is rather demanding. Nonetheless, different people have different experience. Some bond better with their pet, so they wont demand too much attention. Some owner cant bond with their pet. Some cant even bother to bring them for check up and only prepare their pet on the checking day itself.
Too bad...we cant escape. It is foe our good too but taking care of a pet is really time-consuming. But I thank god that they are not giving babies or it would be terrible. I heard that next semester, we are assigned a bigger pet where more people are assigned to take care of it. Wow, must be a huge one coming up. Enough said, I think my pet is whinning and need my attention.
Alright, where the hell did I save my Lab Report??
1. Nerd boy package:- Study for my 2 Exams. Finish my homeworks. Revise my homework. Read my assigned reading. Write my term paper. and drink a lot of coffee. Pros- good preparation for exams. Cons- I'd been doing a lot of those in weekdays! (I lied...)
2. Bad boy package:- Go out kicking asses and clubbing till my leg is worn out and have to crawl home from the bar. Oh ya, got to steal a thick leather jacket. (Some @$$holes stole mine and I am just returning the favor to a lucky person) Pros- gotta waste my night away. If llucky I might witness some gays/lesbians action Cons- need $$ and I am not thick-skinned enough to ask girl to buy me drink in exchange of my butt
3. Player package:- Attempt to court this crazy russian blonde. Ask her out and go dance Salsa with her...and check out other hot latinos at the same time. Some asian chic can be quite hot but that is another story...I dont check out my friends... Pros- Good optical stimulant Cons- My Salsa sucks big time, most likely end up as museum patron- see only, no touch!
4. Bored package:- play pool and pinball. Chat random stuff with the girl taking care of the place...opps...she works on Friday. Pros:- Relatively cheap Cons:- Lonely Saturday...so sad...
5. Old man package:- play chess with my roommate. eat ground nuts. drink chinese tea. Pros:- Good roommate bonding Cons:- Been bonding for quite a while already. Need variations (not THAT, you sick perverts!!)
6. Religious package:- read the bible and pretend to be enlightened by murmuring some random stuff that only my flea, would understand. Pros:- Could be close to God Cons:- I know I am lying if I said I am religious!
7. Rebelious package:- Go out for whole day and threathen to commit suicide after 10 hours of dissapearing. Pros:- Get all the attention I want Cons:- You read the story of boy who cries wolf, didnt you?
I think the best way to spend my saturday is to Sleep through it! My tired body need to recharged. And later wake up continue flirting with this funny girl in msn while chatting with another not so ugly one at the same time...if they are not offline.
//I postphoned this blog till now bacause today is his birthday//
Damn, continuation of my unlucky episode (on 7Oct). My 95% good 5% evil friend, J didnt emailed me. His girlfriend emailed me instead to ask me write him a birthday message. I hate that, because it makes me look like I am writing because she reminded me...I wanted to write something even before she emailed me...that looks bad on myself...oh well, another bad luck day.
Whatever, instead of a simple politically polite birthday message "Dear J, happy birthday, hope you would live long life and have happiness" I want to write something more.
Here are something that could be related to my friend J:
Jay Chow fan...at one time, not sure what now Omnipresent...like a stalker, would literally bug you non-stop if he's hitting on you Happy-go-Lucky...24 hrs happy-looking-face but sure he is DAMN LUCKY Noisy... A rare crap-non-stop species; slice his tongue and he could still talk in sign and body languages Punk...sometimes that's what I called him. He is a punk-wanna-be Hillarious...trust me on that one Adorable...Baby face, dimple, fair, (a little) spoilt; if you hate babies, you'd hate him Naughty...mischievious...lil'devil...those things along the line Guy...yes, he is straight and heterosexual
I have to search all over in the internet and I came across his beautiful picture when he was born. Man, he' so lucky that someone actially posted his baby picture.
That's him!!!
That's just a part of him that I would describe here. Despite being a social animal (he called himself Fat Pig aka Fei Chu in ICQ or Dugong), he is a very caring person. Acting tough too sometimes. Thanks for being a friend...You taught me many things. Would definitely cherish those moments- of good and bad, ups and downs, happy and sad, and ultimately the value of life and death ;-)
Wish you 21st Happy Birthday and hope you wont got wasted. Wait till we got back and get wasted together.
PS: Sent this to his girlfriend after 2 hours receiving the email. What you see now may have been modified slightly. Of course, this picture was not created until after my exam.
Woke up at 930, thanks to my roommate. Not that I havent done that before rather waking at such bright hour and yet feeling tired is not common. Normally I would be fully awake if I wake up after 900. Hence, I miss my first class by default. Thanks to my roommate who assume that I would skip the class. So roommate, what makes you think I would skip my class??
CASE STUDIES: Sophomore year, skipped most of my class, already could be categorized as a amatuer skipper CASE STUDIES: Skipped my 830-1200 class last week set a predecendant case. CASE STUDIES: Skipped my 900-1100 class yesterday with my brain's unanimous support.
My lawyer said it is impossible to win this case. Not enough supporting evidence to argue and it is srucial to overturn those cases.
Next agenda:
Curse of a Cute Japanese girl, M. Yesterday was rejected harshly by her...not what you are thinking, you sick perverts! She promised to come to this Malaysia cultural event if possible and she did come, just to say 'Hi' and left...It's like a hot bitch chatting with you while stopping at the traffice junction, "Wanna ride...opps, it's green light, gotta go...(accelerating indefinitely)"
Then missed my 830 class...you know that. But the point is I would somehow see her right after my class- she has her class there in the same classroom. Missing class means 1 less chance of seeing her...but I met her after my second class. (hmm...i should decribe this visually)
So we met at the cross section of our projected pathway, in a function of time, t=1200. It was just a second or two nonetheless. Good, I didnt miss the stalking ritual. But after that cross section with the polite Hi-Bye gesture, we left...The path way would have been like this (the red one) if I manage to add a few more variables, such as "Wanna go lunch together?" or "Opps, need to get lecture notes from your roommate..." Man, I wasnt fast enough...bad day.
Following up next is in the bus, the moron bus driver braked suddenly; maybe due to some moron driver in front of him stopped suddenly; whom maybe due to another moron pedestrian decided to cross the street suddenly. What a chain reaction, I hate stupid pedestrian. Due to imbalance of frictional force and reaction force, combined with laminal flow profile, momentum force, drag force and body force (actually we can ignore body force if we change the axis) cause him to flow in the direction of bus velocity. End result, he tumbled and fall. That wasnt me. But bad luck, I should go in front and being a hypocrite by asking if he broke his backbone and other stuff...I had demonstrated to the world that I am an ignorant bastard that take joy on other's suffering...(no I didnt enjoy it, I was trying to sleep)
Got home. Received message from friend, asking where I'd gone yesterday and why didnt I reply her message. Replied her..."Dont force me to go through the message history" "I replied via msn" blah blah blah...she got freaked out for a moment. Almost wanted to print screen of msn message history file.
Forecast: I would still scratching my head despite going to TA office hour. Pretty sure that he wont give away answer like selling leak questions in Malaysia. Foreseeing myself got stuck with homework. Then the exam tomorrow. Most likely whatever that I had read would not be coming out. Cumulation of bad lucks.
They said to take a shower to get rid of your 'sui' (badluck-ness). Probably true. I didnt take shower for (3) days already. Let's see if the myth is true.
UPDATES: Missed TA Office Hour although trying hard not to. Shower thingy is just an urban legand
Once upon a time, there is this little bug named Kumbang Mi staying in his Buggieland, happily with his other kumbangs- Kumbang La, Kumbang Dan, and many other fellow kumbangs. They also share the same Buggieland with other Buggites- Rama-Rama, Semut, Nyamuk... They live happily in this Buggie Land. The Buggie land is a wonderful nation too. They have a great king Raja Kumbang and he is very wise.
Raja King wants his children to know more about the things outside the buggie world. So he sent many of his children out and let them go and explore the wonderful world. The king also sent other Buggites out to learn. He wants them to teach young Buggites in return.
However, being wise too, the king warns them about the excitement they will find and also the potential threats that they will face. He gives them advice so that they may not trap easily. He also encourage them so that they will not give up half way. So, Kumbang Mi, Kumbang La, Kumbang Dan, Rama-Rama Sa, Semut Pi, Nyamuk Ju...all of them are ready to leave the Buggieland. Some for the very first time.
Nyamuk Ju is very impatient to leave this place. She wanted to settle elsewhere because in Buggieland, she is not allowed to suck any of the kumbangites and other buggie's blood. She has to rely on the supply of her family source and drink blood silently. During the journey, she met another Nyamuk named Ades. Ades is very goodlooking, he has wonderful strips like zebra and Ades is very charming too. So, together they fall in love at settle by the lake and Nyamuk Ju never comeback to Buggieland.
Semut Pi is very scared. Since he never leaves his people and this is his first time going out without his huge families, he is in fact nervous. Nonetheless, he met many wonderful friends especially Kura-kura. Kura-Kura offered him shelther and invited him to stay at his place. Semut Pi help them with chores. Semut Pi heard many new stories about Kura-kura. He stayed for a little longer and go home. He even manage to convince Kura-kura to come home and stay in Buggieland. Kura-kura likes Buggieland too but he missed kangkung, his favorite snacks. So he went home after a month and promise will come visit again.
Rama-Rama Sa loves flowers. She visits many flowers. Some are new and some are the beutiful ones she sees everyday in Buggieland. She befriends Lebah and together they learn more about honey. Rama-Rama Sa manage to create new honey from new nectar that she never got to taste. Although she almost got trap at labah-labah nest, she is glad that she manage to learn new things. She also learn many new honey making technique from Lebah. After sometime, she goes home and brought home some new flower seeds. Buggieland has more beautiful flowers and nectar.
Kumbang Mi however refuse to make friends. He stayed in his nest most of the time. He is smart because he reads a lot in Buggieland. Kumbang Mi knows a lot of wonders too but he chhose to stays in his nest. Kumbang La and Kumbang Dan sometimes ask him to go meet people but Kumbang Mi just said he is not too free for the day. Sometimes, Kumbang Mi is surprised at the friends that Kumbang La and Kumbang Dan made- bugs like Belalang Hop and Lalat Fli. They are so different from the kumbangs. Especially Belalang, Buggieland makes it forbidden for Belalang to cross the boundary as the Raja Kumbang is afraid that Belalang may attack his children. Nonetheless, Kumbang La and Kumbang Dan and Belalang Hop are good friends. Belalang didnt attack them. Lalat too is viewed as nasty citizens in Buggie. Many Buggites would never friend lalat but kumbang almost never associate themselves with lalat. Lalat is among the dirtiest bug in Buggieland. Nonetheless, Kumbang La and Kumbang Dan are friends of Lalat Fli. They come to Lalat Fli's Dirty Dancing Party and other events. Kumbang La and Kumbang Dan had a wonderful time.
After sometime many other Buggites went home with new knowledge, new insights, and make new friends. They also get to know other Buggites better and other bugs that are so new and interesting. Of course, nyamuk is nowhere be found and Raja Kumbang is a little disappointed with her.
After sometime, Raja Kumbang died. Majority of Buggieland citizen choose Kumbang Mi to be Raja because he is very intelligent. He is renamed Kumbang Shah. Kumbang Shah still send buggites out because that was the a move started by Raja Kumbang.
However, more and more buggites are adventuring out of Buggieland. Some changes occur in Buggieland. More tress are planted and Buggieland is more beutiful. Semut clan is trying to plant kangkung. Others try to make friends with Belalang. Lalat is beginning to be accepted. They even brought some of their extended families to Buggieland.
Many of the kumbang is worried. Other bugs are worried too. Therefore, Kumbang Shah reduce the number of buggites allowed to go for adventure and with only strict rules observed. So, fewer bugs are bringing home friends like Kura-kura or Lalat and Belalang is absolutely not allowed within the soil of buggieland.
Some bugs commented on the rules but most bugs are fine with it.
So, Kumbang La's idea of negotiating with Belalang clan is fiercefully objected. Kumbang Dan is sometimes excluded by many other bugs but Lalat. Rama-Rama Sa wanted to go out to get new seeds but it is not Kumbang Shah said they have quite a lot of honey already and that should be enough. Semut Pi remains the worker in the semut clan but he didnt grow kangkung in large scale anymore.
Of course, Nyamuk Ju is staying by the lake and never know that Buggites in Buggieland are talking bad about her. She couldnt care less anyways. She has too many kids to take care of.
(In case you find this helpful: Kumbang- beetles/ladybird, Semut- ants, Rama-Rama- butterfly, Nyamuk- mosquitoes, Lalat- flies, belalang- grasshopper, kura-kura- tortise.)
I was reading my good friend's short article (Sept 10 entry)about a love story. This is the direct response to his story as I dont want to take up a full page of his comment to write it. Plus he cant take out this huge load of crap theory in MY BLOG! Quote my friend wrote "Why is it such simple idea of two persons falling in-love can be so complex and intriguing?" Let's see the Math involving 2 souls falling in love with each other.
Here we assume the case of falling in love between homo sapiens (intraspecies) and betwen Male and Female.
We have to define our functions and constants and variables;
Definition Act of 2 souls falling in Love = L Response from Male = M Response from Female = F
Since 2 souls involved in assumption are Male and female, L therefore is M and F dependable.
Classical point of view: M likes F; M dislike F; F likes M; F dislike M. We can assign values to each case: M = 1 ; M = -1; F = 1; F = -1 Therefore Outcome L = M + F; At L = 2, the two souls will fall in love.
Normalized you will get L = c(M + F) = 1, with c = 0.5
note: if none has feeling ie never met, assign value = 0
If girl likes guy, F = 1; guy likes girl, M = 1; L = 0.5 x 2 = 1; which means they would fall in love.
or
If girl never meet guy, F = 0; guy likes girl because she looks hot in poster, M = 1 L = 0.5 x 1 = 0.5; which means they wouldnt fall in love.
It is discrete, which means they would only fall in love only if L = 1; nothing would happen if L = 0.8 or 0.9.
This is the simple Love equation that is everyone's knowledge. I just put it in Mathematics language. In addition, love is blind, therefore, other components such as financial status, physical appearance (Length, Mass, Temperature)... are constants and once you normalize them, L ended up as the same ratio at same t, time. Unless F = M = 1 happens at t, only will the act of falling in love happen.
However, our friend's observation here stated that, after sometime, the girl changes her mind. Which means F = 1 only at t. Here we assign t = t0. Since the M = 1 not at t0, L therefore is no longer 0.5 x (1 + 1) but 0.5 x (0 + 1) = 0.5 not = 1
This is an interesting observation that show that L is indeed time dependant. Hence, we should wirte L = M(t) + F(t). It is consistent with the classical view of love.
In the bible, 1 Corinthians 13 : 7 sums up Love nicely, "Love never gives up; and its faith, hope, and patience never fail." All the mentioned components (faith, hope, patience, never give up) are time in the long run, which means t is not in terms of an instant but accumulation of some time. So, our L is no longer t at an instant, but a sum of M(t) and F(t) at given instant. Those constants that I mentioned also will influence M(t) and F(t) value as they are not time independent. (You may strike loterry out of the blue and that changes your 'mating partner's F(t) value.) In general, integrate them and divide it with t observation. You would be able to find the mean or average value.
What is important is that M(t) is no longer a simple 1/0 value but a decimal of values. M(t) = 1 or F(t) = 1 only if the test subjects are constantly falling in love which we know it never happen. Unless both knows the existance of the other at early age. However, people are falling in love regardless. We can only conclude that L is not a discrete value, but a probability.
But as it is in quantum physics, it is just a probability. Even at L = 0.99 value, who knows if girl is married and that 0.01 may due to that reason and thus no act of falling in love happen. Besides, the longer the time period the more accurate it is.
As mentioned constants are also time dependable and therefore changes from time to time which will eventually alter the discrete value of M(t) and F(t). Actual value of M(t) or F(t) are in decimals to make calculation easier we simplified it by rounding up the value. So, I like you, +1 and I hate you, -1. I dont know you, 0.
This theory depends on how seriouly you take the quote from 1 Corinthians 13 : 7. You may find other quotes but I think it will still lead to the same argument.
However, assume that you have no argument with my source of quotation, it leads to an important finding, Love at first sight could never be true...how sad.
Besides, if you didnt realize, this theory doesnt include interspecies (ie beastilty), intragender (ie homosexual) and multiple partners.
To further help you understand, here is an example case.
In simple 100 days observations- Guy: day 1 - day 30, guy likes girl; day 31 - day 60, guy busy; day 61 - day 100, guy likes girl Girl: day 1 - day 30, girl dislike guy (maybe he's stalking her); day 31 - day 60, girl likes guy (lack of attention); day 61 - day 80, girl busy; day 81 - day 100, girl likes guy
M(t) = (30 x 1 + 30 x 0 + 40 x 1) / 100 = 0.7
F(t) = (30 x -1 + 30 x 1 + 20 x 0 + 20 x 1) / 100 = 0.2
L = c( + ) = 0.5 x (0.7 + 0.2) = 0.45
So we can conclude that they might have a 45% chance of getting hooked up if someone put the two together after 100 days observation.
If you think you understand, try this.
In simple 12 months observation, the following significant events happened-
month 1: girl transferred to new school month 2: guy taught girl how to play tennis month 3: guy's birthday, girl send present month 4: exam, study together month 5: term holiday, their home far far away month 6: school starts, take classes together month 7: got girlB hit on guy, guy went out for a month month 8: girl's birthday but guy forget month 9: guy broke girl's precious vase month 10: girl felt sick guy visited her month 11: exam, but didnt study together -different classes month 12: they both bought each other Xmas present
So, what is the probability of L at month 11 and month 12?
Wait, do you all think that I took this comment too seriously?
I am playing Romance of three kingdoms X. I had been playing that series for a long while, including III, IV, V, IX and other versions- RPG, monopoly, street fighter style…
To begin with, Romance of three kingdoms is a Chinese classic novel written by Luo Guanzhong. It is based on real events and characters in ancient Chinese history. However, Luo’s classic may not generate good response among scholars regarding its accuracy. Nonetheless, it popularized that period of China with wonderful myth. For more information, go to:
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Among the many character, Lu Bu is not my favorite. However, I’d decided to write about him. Let’s see how he might have looked like. (I wanted him with his red hare!!) Isnt he cool!
To begin with, Lu Bu might be my ancestor. Seriously, since we bear the same surname and Lu is not really a very common name like Lee, Chan (or Chen, Chin…) etc he might be my ancestor. Alright, he came at the Northwest province of China but still, it is a very possible outcome. Let us not be too skeptical and analyze this possibility with reliable technology- gene and with that, let’s see what my great-great ancestor had left me with.
1. He’s the greatest warrior at that period of chaos. Hence, no doubt, he will be tall and muscular, not to mentioned, handsome to a certain extend. I think I am relatively tall compared to girls, I have enough muscle to show off my bicep, handsome enough that girls shy away from me.
2. He’s quite stupid. If you played enough of those games, you’d realized that he’s one of the stupidest characters you could find, quite useless and literally will fall for any traps. I wouldn’t say I am stupid, rather intellectually challenged. I would try to frame others but ended being caught or found out…
3. He is a martial art specialist. He’s proficient in many weapons, not to mention a good archer. I am good with weapons too. Seriously. I don’t have preference for any weapons when I played counter-strike. I can take anything as long as I am financially allowed. Besides, I will have strings of headshot…only if I am not ‘headshoted’ first.
4. Last but not the least, he’s easily tamed. Just give him an extremely beautiful lady and he’ll do anything for you, including murdering his godfather. Oh I forgot, his godfather didn’t use girls to lure him to kill his ex-godfather. So, show me some pretty girls and I will anything for you…No I don’t think so…I am not easily tamed like he does.
Maybe that concludes that he wasn’t my great-great ancestor afterall.
I was clearing my room this week. I found something- a box of chocolate that I bought in Washington DC. Still new and the seal not broken, even the price tag was still there. However, it was already 1.5 years old.
I am not sure how long a sealed chocolate will last but I know my tummy is more precious than the box of err...24 chocolates. I love chocolates but I treasure my tummy more. I am just too selfish to sacrifice my tummy. I am not qualified to be a chocolate lover.
What's so special about the chocolate anyway? What is it that I treasured so much that I never touch it for 1.5 years. I mean I knew it existed all the while and why I never bother to send it out or open it and eat it? Well, it's just $12.49, not sure how much inflation would jack up the price though.
For one reason, they are just too nice. I was told that there are sweet loving tender messages folded in each 24 chocolates. I bet it is the near perfect present for valentine day, or for one's birthday, or... Well, I never know if they indeed has such messages...I never will.
Why I bought it in the first place? I think I just felt that I might need a present to give away on my first valentine's day. Did I? I didnt.
Why I never sent it away? Fear, I guess was the reason. I was still a young hot blooded kid then that did things with his guts and instinct. Well, I bet I was glad that I didnt send it afterall, or regretted it?
Somethings are just like that box of chocolate. If you dont send it out, it will just be left in the bottom of your treasure box and left there to collect dust. And as years past by, you dont feel like sending it anymore. And as it goes, you even wonder if that chocolate is still as tasty, edible, although you know it once was guaranteed to be tremendously awesome.
So, in the end, I ended the life of that chocolate. I spared it the misery of waiting to impress other people. I let it forever be sealed in that wonderful box and left untouch. I know it once taste nice and will be forever be nice, only if I send it to someone.
Alright, here's another birthday wish for you, my classmate, schoolmate, fellow victorian, roommate, university mate, apartment mate......(all in past tense) Nothing too fancy, that I sincerely apologize. However, I hope that it's the thought that count. This picture brings my wishes to you, especially you who are right now facing all the challenges and I wish that you would endure it with success.
CARD OF STRENGTH
"Usually we think of strength in physical terms - big arms, powerful legs - but there is also inner strength. Inner strength comes from an exercise of the heart muscle. It is perseverance, courage, resolve and composure - qualities that help us endure when times are tough. In the past, a person with inner strength was commonly said to have character; he or she could be counted on in the darkest moments. Card 8 (Strength) represents this energy of quiet determination. Strength is not a flashy card, but one that is solid and reliable.
Card 8 also represents patience and compassion. Getting angry is easy when events turn sour, but dealing calmly with frustration takes great strength. So does accepting others and forgiving mistakes. We need strength to mold situations softly. Card 8 is more subtle, even loving. Notice how the lion (itself a symbol of strength) is being guided and tamed by the woman's gentle hands.
Card 8 will appear in a reading when its qualities are needed. It can be a reminder not to despair or give up. You have the inner strength to endure and triumph. If you are pushing too hard, you need to withdraw for the moment and be patient. If other people or circumstances are driving you crazy, remember the strength that comes with love and forbearance. These will see you through the hardest moments. "
Happy 21st Birthday. Hope you have a wonderful day.
PS: I am leaving in say...4 hours and wont have internet access. So, it is an early bird's wish.
Dear friend, lost touch with you for quite a while, I dont even dare to dream of a second of your delicate fingers would actually scroll and visit this filthy page of mine. For what it contains thus far was none other than my childish thought and nonesense fart. Nonetheless, today is your birthday, I hope these lines below would bring you joy...and may you have a blessed day.
My 11+1 wishes for you:
wish that i could be standing there instead of sitting in front of my MSN
wish that i could sing happy birthday instead of playing it in my head
wish that i could take your picture instead of repeatedly looking at jpgs you sent me
wish that i could see you blow the candles instead of lighting my cigar
wish that i could hear you laugh instead of watching chick flick
wish that i could see you cut the cake instead of eating one now
wish that i could give you this card instead of mailing it to you
wish that i could say "happy birthday" to you instead of typing it
wish that i could say "21 already...no more behaving like a kid..." and all other long winded crap
wish that i could wink after saying that wish that i could give you a birthday hug
wish that i could ...
would you grant me these wishes in the future?
Happy Birthday.
PS: I know I should have come up with 21 wishes but my brain just drop dead, as you could see with the "..." Two ideas used up, the coming ones will be far more challenging...Clock just showed 1200am...
As I mentioned, Aug and October will be among my busiest months. And as I mentioned too that I dont want to google and paste the birthday wishes. I got idea from friend Tracy (My Eyes -> Your Eyes) to edit a picture/photo and a wish. So to my friend E that's celebrating 21st birthday today aka 4 Aug, here's a birthday wish for you. Err...currently connection sux big time so I hope I could upload the picture as soon as possible.
Program used: MSPaint saved as PNG. BMP took too much space while GIF and JPG sux after converted from BMP. Time taken: 95mins
All the Best!!
PS: I cant believe launching this blog takes longer time than drawing Arwen. And of course, I didnt draw it, I copy and modified a carton Arwen
August is one of the most important yet troublesome period for me. Another on would be October. Well, let’s talk about present, instead of the uncertain future. For some weird reason, I know many people who are born in the month of August. 4 Aug, 8 Aug, 11 Aug, 13 Aug, 18 Aug, 28 Aug? (let me check…hope that my daughter wont kill me for that) 31 Aug…That’s bad. Worse still is that as a gentleman, I am not suppose to forget the ladies’ birthday and to show my sensitive side, I need to google up some nice pick up lines/well wishes that wouldn’t sound so antique yet not too contemporarily erotic.
Let me see what can I find in google:
-Damn, if being sexy was a crime, you'd be guilty as charged! (must be a policeman cant wait to get laid)
-Apart from being sexy, what do you do for a living? (waiting for you to get laid? Of course not!! @$$hole!)
-Can I flirt with you? (is it just flirt or am I expecting more than that)
-I'm good at math, U+I=69 (man…hope that girl is not a math major)
-If I could rearrange the alphabet, I'd put U and I together. (too bad…you cant)
More in cosmopolitan (April 2004 edition)…too bad it’s been ripped off. Hey. It’s my friends copy…I read that once in a while though.
However, nothing beats those in "A Beautiful Mind": . Nash: I don't exactly know what I am required to say in order for you to have intercourse with me. But could we assume that I said all that. I mean, essentially we are talking about fluid exchange, right? So could we go just straight to the sex?
Nash: You're still here. Alicia: I'm still here. Nash: (almost inaudibly)Why? Alicia: I was wondering Professor Nash, if I could take you to dinner?...You do eat, don't you? Nash: On occasion. Table for one, you know how it is. Prometheus, chained to the rock, birds circling overhead. No, I expect you wouldn't... Leave your address with my office. I'll pick you up on Friday at eight...We'll eat. One more thing. Do you have a name or should I just call you 'Miss'?
Alicia Larde (Jennifer Connelly): Boy, you must really be important. What are you working on? Nash: Classified. Alicia: Everybody waited half an hour. Class. You missed class today. Nash: Ah well, I am confident they did not miss me. Alicia: The problem you left on the board, I solved it. Nash: No, You didn't. Alicia: You didn't even look. Nash: I never said the vector fields were rational functions...Your solution is elegant though ultimately incorrect.
(wow, more like you are beautiful but ultimately not my type)
Nash: I find that polishing my interactions in order to make them sociable requires a tremendous effort. I have a tendency to expedite information flow by being direct. Often I don't get a good result. Alicia: Try me. Nash: I find you very attractive. Your aggressive moves toward me indicate you feel the same. Still ritual requires that we continue a number of platonic activities before we can have intercourse. But all I really want to do is have sex with you as soon as possible. Are you going to slap me now?
And the most touching of all :
Nash: I've always believed in numbers. In the equations and logics that lead to reason... I've made the most important discovery of my life. It is only in the mysterious equations of love that any logic or reason can be found. Perhaps it is good to have a beautiful mind. But it is a better gift to discover a beautiful heart . . . I'm only here tonight because of you. You're the only reason I am... you're all my reasons.
(By the way, this is also a Hollywood gimmick)
What happened in the end? I decided to write my own lines. Not sure if I'll ended up getting slapped on the face, not even sure if I am going to utter out those words.
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Last Friday night was fun. Nothing beats a bottle of beer and poker on Friday night, no classes to be worried the next day and you can sleep till you're dead the following day. Oh yeah, now I appreciate TGIF- thank god it is Friday.
The last time I played poker was err...4 months ago? Yup my average lost per game is $10 and I am now at a -$30 streaks. Not good. But I still have 2 years to get my money back...if I could. Nonetheless, Friday's game is a totally different environment. Unlike my previous games, it is tournament style, winner takes all. So once you lose, you better pray that someone will lose big or you'll be spectators for the entire night. Sounds fun huh? Wait till I tell you the amount of the pot, you'd be really dissapointed...only $5. Yup, we spent nearly 8 hours to decide who takes all the $5, lowest pay job one could find in US.
The fun was that I was not in a sober mood. I think I play better with a bottle of Guiness at my side. Man, with a face as red as an apple, you cant tell if I am lying. A bad poker face, but it works. I was among the last 3. Oh there are 5 players by the way. Being the last three is no fun, especially when you are not the chip leader. Letting other players buying you out of the game is definitely not a good experience. I so wanted to see what the 2 cards facing down of his are but man...I dont the chips to help me with! Well I could but my instinct tell me dont. Guess you have no one to thrust but your gut feeling during poker games.
Not only losing chips is a pain, surviving in the game is even harder. When you are not the chip leader, you want to play as conservative as possible, and not to be swayed by those losers to go all in and join their hobo association. However, giving up is easier. You just quit and dont have to worry about it anymore! I managed to stayed for 2 hours in a third place position, climbing slowly, squeezing my two opponents little by little. Oh yeah, with Guiness, my best partner and advisor, I scared them with Jack Shits a couple of time, bait them to invest in a losing game, and once in a while force them to be charitable to the poorer citizen of the pot. Whenever I said "That's it!", I raised a 10 after the flop, 20 at the turn and 40 at the river...hehehe...They were literally scared and just folded, to minimize their loss. Of course there were a few times I got away with it, ya with Jack Shits!!!
Surviving is really the hardest. It's easy to win my money...but to remain cool and play consistently is not I am good at. Once I had my money, I lost my tempo, trying to earn my with more investment. That gives me away pretty easily. Besides, after exhausting my Guiness, I am sober. Sober man doesnt dare to risk too much hence contributing to a slower and modest return. Earning per round drop rather drastically. Desperation took over and that gave me a readable face. My wholeself getting irritated with steady losses and I couldnt think rationally...In the final blow, I put all in on a stupid hand...Sigh...I should have known it better myself.
Lesson learnt in poker game:
1. Dont give up, even if left with chips enough for blinds 2. Get Guiness or Kamikaze or anything else, risk is what creates the empire 3. Be very...very...very...patient, even if me is winning 4. Be the chip leader if possible 5. Dont act like a pro even if I am a pro 6. I can raise, call, fold on a pocket aces, or bluff as if I have one 7. I could have a Full House with a 3 and a Jack 8. Never have a woman at your side as the advisor, it's your money
This is the third week of my nihongo class. It is an interesting class and 8 of us are having fun! Ya rite...With a funky Shimizu sensei, kireina Kumai sensei, kawaii Toyosawa sensei and shizukana Kanako sensei, I am bestowed the fundamental arts of hiragana and katakana and lots of kanji that I picked up along the way.
I always thought that recognizing katakana is hard after forcing my already limited memory into accepting hiragana. But some of the katagana if you realize are almost the same as the one as hiragana. All you need to do is to square it. And some are ehem...bad. They are part of a mandarin character and that makes it hard for me to memorize it. I need to transfer the katagana into mandarin pronunciation and the nemonic of it later...sigh...
Another observation is the use of katagana. The way things are spelt are predetermined. Although borrowed from foreign languages, it can only be spelt just one way! dang it... it is worst if it is not English. Example, restaurant, but 'ent' sound is absense in French. Our Japanese friends followed the French and thus it is spelt resutoron. I was expecting resutaronto. Other non-English word that I could remember now is alberto?? (which means part time). In katakana it is spelt as arubaito. Why is it not patotaimu?? Not to mention su-pa- (supermarket), depa-to (department store).
Final observation, kanji. Number one thing I learned, not all kanji are the same as chinese character. They are similar but not the same. Some meaning are different at all as a matter of fact. There is one time I so wanted to just write in Chinese character and be done with it. However I realize that flipping the coin, what would I think if a Japanese write mandarin character using their familiar kanji instead? So I forced myself to write the weird looking mandarin character. Similiarly, would you be angry if a French writing English but spell the words in French instead? Or in Spanish?
Still, I like kanji. I asked my friend why they have so many characters, now I think I can answer part of the questions. It makes life so much better after that. Whatever that is in katakana, it is some foreign object. Most likely a noun. Hiragana is normally particles or adverbs. Kanji, nouns. I actually find it weird to read foriegn names or stuff in hiragana. Unlike chinese, everything is chinese character, so it is hard or even weird when there is something foreign appeared in that. However, most of the foreign stuff, chinese have a substitution for it. And sometimes, just written in pure english. Well, the diversity of language. If I could learn and be fluent in one language within 3 years, and I live for say 75 years...I could be fluent with 18 more new languages, minus the first 21 years that I'd wasted. Hahaha.
Finally school starts next week. I have been taking a month long break and if you ask me what have I done, I couldnt answer a lot. Not that life is not exciting, I have been doing lots of stuff, well, maybe not that much. Rather I dont feel that much of the spices.
Let me give you a runthrough of my life in 4 weeks month: First week- went to Cedar campus in Michigan for a Summer Retreat, 1 week away from internet... dang it! but that was the best moment! Attempted to read the books that I want to but only finish a book and a few chpters. Second week- Cooked chicken rice on Tuesday. Nothing much but read, sleep, play PC games, drink beer, play darts...ya, called home. Minor depression due to unknown hormones. That weekend went to Minneapolis/St Paul for Midwest Games. Thrid week- went movie, watched Harry Potter. Rotate eat out at Friend and Neighbor's place. Highlights of the week, played a game of monopoly. Suffer from minor derpession type B again, syntompt aggreviated by unknown events. Fourth week- Grocery shopping and my turn to repay their kindness, chicken rice day declared on Tuesday. Went and watch a comedy- Day After Ttomorrow, yes it is a comedy if you know what to look out for, Watched a Gamelan/Jazz Performance. err...till today.
So, it is still very eventful as you can tell but I dont really feel too much of the excitement. Felt kind of guilty. The last entries was in early May, it is a month since I last wrote something in it. Maybe I dont feel too much of writing. Ya, it is guilt that drives me writing. I promise to write something, a reflection thesis of my 4 week's life. Ya darn rite I am going to do it.
Disclaimer: pure imagination gathered from random stories told/read. If it happens, it is purely coindicent. (Those legal disclaimer terms you saw before the start of any drama series)
What I gathered after reading an article from www.jeffooi.com entitled "[url=http://www.jeffooi.com/archiv...]Police's new scoreboard[/url] " It's in typical malay slang, so those who doesnt know Bahasa Melayu, I apologise, I am not a good samaritan. You can learn it from me though :P
case 1-
POLIS: "Oh, (looking at sticker) kerja kat SM TMN XXX, you sudah hampir 60km/j, lain kali slow sikit, tau?"
DREBAR PROTON: "Ya, tuan"
case 2-
POLIS: "You tadi sudah cross divider, tau tak? Ini salah tau?" (expecting you to plead)
DREBAR MERCZ: "Sorry la tuan, tolong la. Saya kali pertama datang sini, tak tau mar."
POLIS: "Tak boleh. Sekarang manyak susah. Mana lesen?" (a stern-looking face)
DREBAR MERCZ: "Tolong la, saya betul betul tak tau mar..." (giving him your license)
POLIS: "You sign kat bawah ni." (hand you a small clip board with empty papers)
DREBAR MERCZ: "Belakang sini?" (flipping to the next page, put a few red color notes, put the first paper back on top)
POLIS: "Ya, kat sana." (smile)
POLIS: "Lain kali jangan buat lagi, tau? Bawak cam ni banyak bahaya." (return you your license)
case 3-
POLIS: "You tadi bawak manyak laju, you tau tak?" (stern-looking face)
DREBAR FIAT: "Tau, apa you mau? saman sama gua kah?" (buat muka dirt)
POLIS: "Ya la, I saman you $300." (taking out the ticketing book)
DREBAR FIAT: "Saman saman la, gua bayar nanti."
POLIS: "You mampu kah? nanti kena tunggu kat balai, manyak susah oh.." (stop writing...as if he's written something before that)
DREABAR FIAT: "Apa maksud?"
POLIS: "Tak mau I tolong?"
DREBAR FIAT: "Tolong macam mana?"
POLIS: "$100 I tolong you settle."
DREBAR FIAT: "$50! You saman sama gua pun boleh."
POLIS: "OK. OK. $50 pun boleh la..." (cursing your line of ancestors)
case 4-
POLIS: "You tadi bawak manyak laju, you tau tak?" (monster looking face)
DREBAR FIAT2: "Oh ya kah, sorry la tuan."
POLIS: "Ya la, semua orang bawak laju pun tak rasa punya. macam ni boleh kena saman tau?." (taking out the ticketing book)
DREBAR FIAT2: "Wah, I budak sekolah, tak mampu bayar wor. Tolong sikit boleh, bang?" (muka 50 sen)
POLIS: "You sekolah mana punya?" (stop writing as if...he's written something before that)
DREBAR FIAT2: "Tu Kolej XXX, dekat sana saja." (pointing at random building)
POLIS: "Betul betul budak sekolah?"
DREBAR FIAT2: "Betul, betul punya." (pretend to look for student ID)
POLIS "OK lah, you kali pertama, $100 saja la. Mana lesen?" (Hand you his ticketing book.)
DREBAR FIAT2: "OK." (Put 2 $50 notes under the license, return them together with his book)
POLIS: "Lain kali jangan buat lagi!"
DREBAR FIAT2: "Ya, bang."
Later you found out that your friend DREBAR FIAT1 just paid $50 and you drove back to the police officer.
DREBAR FIAT2: "Bang, tadi itu FIAT kena $50 saja la. Boleh kasi balik kah?"
POLIS: "Mana you tau?"
DREBAR FIAT2: "Itu bawak Fiat kawan I mar."
POLIS: "Ish...malang betul." (return one of your $50 bill)
Case 5-
POLIS: "Mana lesen?" (smart uniform with visible name tag and ID number)
DREBAR KANCIL: "Cilaka, ACA!" (cursing the whole PDRM as you saw 4 other officer with a van and flasing lights)
POLIS: "Apa you cakap?"
DREBAR KANCIL: "tara pa pa." (continue cursing silently)
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